Do you have any friends that you take for granted? I have a few. They are mostly friends that I have known since high school and we don't talk a lot anymore, but they are still my buds. What bugs me is that a lot of times, they make more of an effort contacting me than I do them. I feel really bad about this, yet being human (and lazy), most of the time I fail to do anything about it.
Michael Korda, Elisha Bussell (that will always be your last name to me), Charity Coyne, Josh Hailey, Eric Wright: I'm sorry I don't do a better job of keeping in touch with you. You are great friends!
My other thought is: where is the line between being dependable, being a sap, and being taken advantage of? I want to be thought of as dependable, but not at the expense of not being able to tell anyone 'no.' I don't like disappointing my friends. I don't like seeing on their faces or hearing in their voices. I want to be that person that everyone can depend on. But sometimes, it's just not realistic. Especially now that I have my own family. I want everyone to know that I will always be here as much as I can. You can bet in an emergency I'll have your back. And I know you'll understand if I say no when something interferes with family stuff, because family comes first.
That's all I have tonight.
